“What a mess!” I thought. “What a bloody mess!” I wasn’t British cursing–I meant literally bloody.

I had settled into the recliner after getting my infusion going last Friday. Needles in? Check. Pump started? Check. Blanket? Check. Gatorade? Check. Anne with an E? Check and check.

I got caught up in the show, continuously thinking “this didn’t happen in the book,” and cringing in second-hand embarrassment from Anne’s antics. I neglected to check my sites as often as I should have–at all in fact, until I felt a weird trickle running down my left leg. Crap. Crap crap crap. I knew what that meant. I stuck my hand into my sweatpants and felt the left side of my leg where I had placed the needle half an hour before and was greeted by a wet, sticky mess. That confirmed it. My site was leaking.

With a groan, that for once had nothing to do with what Anne was doing on the TV, I got up and went into the kitchen to assess the damage further. Down went the sweatpants. Up went the leg of my bball shorts. Another Mormon curse word or two as I saw that I wasn’t just leaking Gammagard, I was also leaking blood. Rather a lot for such a teeny, tiny hole in my leg.

I’ve done more than 150 sub-q infusions by now. I’ve had leaking medicine, blood in the tube from hitting a blood vessel, asthma attacks, headaches, chills, extremely painful needle sites that rub too close to the muscle, bent needles, needles falling out mid-infusion, faulty tubing–just about everything. But this was the first time I ever leaked blood.

As always before starting the pump I checked to make sure that my needles hadn’t landed in any blood vessels; once the needles are in I pull back on the syringe and if blood comes into the tube, that means trouble–I can’t use that site. I had done this on Friday as usual and it was all clear! So I shouldn’t have been bleeding… but I was.

I talked to an infusion nurse about it Monday. She said, “that’s weird.” (If I had a nickel for every time a health care professional has said that to me…) Usually when leaking occurs it’s because the needle isn’t long enough–it’s not getting deep enough into your fat tissue. But based on my weight and height the nurse was pretty sure that wasn’t the problem, and we were both reluctant to go up to the next needle size–12 mm (yikes).

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This is a 9mm needle

Instead she recommended I try using more sites. For a while now I’ve just been using two, which I know is pushing it. You’re really only supposed to have 15-30ml of fluid per site; with just two I’m demanding each take about 50ml. That’s a lot.

Friday after I discovered the leak, I had to pinch off the tubing and take the needle out of that side, so my right leg had to take about 80ml of fluid. That was seriously ouchy. I should have taken a picture–it was pretty hilariously swollen–but I didn’t. Just imagine an angrily red grapefruit on the side of my leg and you’ve about got it.

So now I have to use a three needle set.

 

Which is fine. I actually used a four needle set for the first couple years I did sub-q, then I switched because I liked only having to stick twice per infusion. I’ve never used the trifurcated sets much because, well, it’s silly but the lack of symmetry bothers me; with three needles there’s always one side with two and one side with only one. It’s weird. But since my skin is done with this 50ml-per-site foolishness I guess my OCD side will just have to deal.

The question is then: how do I decide which side to torture more?… Flip for it? Eeny, meeny, miny, moe? It’s a conundrum alright.