The start of a new year is great right? You watch the ball drop, raise a glass, make resolutions–all that good stuff. January first comes around each year and you feel a sense of a fresh start. You look back on the previous year and see how far you’ve come; you look forward into the new year that holds all sorts of possibilities. Great. But for those of us who deal with chronic, significant health issues the new year means something else as well.

It’s something we dread.

It starts not on January 1, but with the first major medical necessity of the new year.

For me, and my PI homies out there that is generally our first infusion shipment of the year.

You dial the specialty pharmacy number with a knot in your stomach, you try to sound normal as you go through all the normal shipment info, then the moment arrives– with trembling hand you hold the phone to your ear and wait for the bomb to drop. Your copay amount.

You see, the new year means that the deductible you met last year is all gone and you have a fresh pile of money you have to toss into the insurance pit before you’ll get decent coverage.

It also means that your insurance company can make all sorts of changes that come into effect with the new year–maybe they’ll move your infusion medication to a different tier on their covered medications meaning they cover less of it, maybe they’ll increase the cost of your medication, maybe they’ll make you switch to a whole different one because they no longer cover the one you’re on… The terrifying possibilities are nearly endless.

This past week the Chronic Illness New Year hit me and my family hard. I went to order my months supply of Gamunex-c and infusion supplies to be met with the wonderful surprise of my copay increasing from $250 (but actually zero because our deductible had been met with copay assistance from the wonderful folks at Gammagard before I was forced to switch) to $600.

For those of you who aren’t familiar with Ig infusions, this may seem like an impossible amount (and really it should be), but the sad fact is that this is a problem continually faced by those who need Ig infusions and their families.

Luckily most Ig companies provide copay assistance to those who use their product and need help paying for it (which is basically everybody). After my wonderful doc and I jumped through several hoops, it looks like I will be able to get copay assistance starting next month from my new buds at Gamunex. But even with assistance many families still have to shell out a considerable amount before the year’s deductible is met.

As I’m writing this I’m thinking I really, really wish that I didn’t have to know so much about health insurance already. But I’m also thinking despite the hoops, the bills, the stress, and all the wonders of the Chronic Illness New Year, I’m just so grateful to be able to have the Ig infusions. I’m so grateful that my immunodeficiency was able to be diagnosed and there is this treatment. And it does help. A lot.

So Happy Chronic Illness New Year! May the odds be ever in your favor…